arashic0804 | Regret and Second Chance: Chapter 30

Title: Regret and Second Chance

Rating: G

Pairings: Sakuraiba and Arashi

Disclaimer: I do not own any of arashi.

Summary: Arashi will lose one member and Sho will have a second chance.

(Chapter Thirty)

Three months had passed after my accident. The bandage had been removed once the doctor fully convinced the recovery of my injury. The aftermath of the injury was now I’m having a visible scar on my left forehead and my sighted also had been affected as well which cause me to wear specs.

I’m still in dilemma about my past as I can’t remember a thing. I still having doubt about my parents and the way I’m living as I feel like everything seems to be fake and I am not what my parents(at the moment) told me. They seems to detect my doubtful expression as in to convince me more, my parents even show me of my past picture and even brought me to my past schools just to help me to remember. To be frank, it still doesn’t help but seeing their hard works made me had to lie and accepted the fact and I don’t want to bother them again.

After that, I didn’t even mention or slightly talk about my past anymore and I lived my life as usual even though almost everyday I keep longing a feeling of happiness or someone or something that I loved to do in the past. I missed some sense of belonging to a past that I had problem of remembering it.

I walked along with Momo to my usual hang out. In the park where I can see the top of Tokyo Tower, a small hill where I usually climb on and sat on top of it watching, laying down and look at the sky and enjoyed the feeling of quietness and comfort.

The other reason I kept coming to the park is also because of the sense of belonging feeling that I felt once I saw this place and also to look at a regular visitor of the park.

It seems in the past presumably, I came here a lot as I know the site preety well for the first time I was here and I kept coming back within these three months.

One night, I arrived at my usual spot and sat down. It is comforting as usual. I zipped my jacket as I feel the breeze past around the park. Leaves from the trees falls and flew around along with the wind and the place look really nice. I looked at Momo who was busy chasing the flying leaves animatedly. I glanced around to see the whole view of the park and to check whether is there are still peoples hanging out. At the far end of my right I can see a couple of youngsters just sitting and enjoy the view while holding each other in the arms. I smiled and then continue to glance on my left, nothing much happening as there are hardly any people around.

As I was about to return my gaze to Momo, suddenly my eyes caught something. At the few seats on my left, beside a tree, on the bench I saw there is someone sitting there. I can’t get a better view of his face as he looked the sight of the view on his left and he seems to be preoccupied either with the surrounding or with his thought.

I don’t know why but watching that guy really caught my interest. After a few minutes he looked around and while he turned his face on the right I get a better view of his face features. He looks sad and distraught and part of me tell me that he look like he is waiting for someone or something and he look very hopeful.

And then here goes this sense of feeling that starts to arouse around me again when I looked at the guy. I somehow feel sad looking at the guy and hate to see him sad. It seems like just by looking at the guy triggered my mood. I wondered if this guy had something to do with my past.

“Wait Shin, what made you think like that?” my inner side asked me.

“Well can you explain why I am feeling like this when I saw him?” I argued back.

“You just feel pathetic as you can’t remember your past and it made you judge everything only based on your instinct and you just feel frustrated. It’s about time you should stop thinking about the past and live you live presently”

I sighed. Maybe part of my logical side was right. I was feeling frustrated as I eagerly trying to remember my past up till I forget to live in present. But somehow my illogical side (as in instinct) keep telling me that this guy can lead me to somewhere. This time, I decided to give my illogical side a chance. I decided to go and try to chat with the guy.

“Yosh!” I said as I stand up and started to walk to him but then I stopped.

By the time I looked at the bench on my left, I saw the guy was already gone.

(SHIDA said: Ah I feel so sad(I kept saying this aren’t I) when I start writing Aiba/Shin POV… I wondered whether what I wrote does happen in real life. XD and expect long chapters after this…XD thanks in advance for reading and thanks for all the support…XD and since tomorrow I wont be on coz I will be off from work and I promised u guys daily updates so I posted this chapter today…ENJOY!!)