Regret and Second Chance: Chapter 51

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Title: Regret and Second Chance

Rating: G

Pairings: Sakuraiba and Arashi

Disclaimer: I do not own any of arashi.

Summary: Arashi will lose one member and Sho will have a second chance.

 

 

(Chapter Fifty-one)

 

We stood in the street and looked around

The angular town, dirty sky and endless days

There is one apple for sale

Let’s shine, how much is that pile? No! No!

Let’s break away from this bright age

 That smiling face is our pride

We are OK showing each other that, we can do it

The mountains will still continue

We will raise above them with the wind
All right! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!
The silence before the wind blows, jellyfish

Hinting that nothing will come true, the night may not seem so kind

But today will pass

We are jellyfish slipped into a crowd of people

Seeing our dreams wiggling into tomorrow, we search for love and swim again

We’ll be able to make the flowers bloom, I’m sure…

 

(Arashi no Mae no Shizukesa – Arashi)

 

 

I always know dancing is my passion. I always wanted to dance and always wondered how I can archive doing that. Living in a family that prioritize education make it hard for me to achieves it either but for the first time I decided to take a move that I know would made my parents mad.

 

I went to the audition and passed. By the time I told my parents, I promised them I will study hard and at the same time will do things that I liked and my parents agreed as long I give them good results.

 

When I was in the Jimunsho, I always wanted to be in a group but sadly I didn’t put into any group. But later there was news spreading around about Johnny’s latest group and there was my name in the list. I was happy to know that but at the same time I don’t want it to be there since at that time I will busy with my study for college entrance exam.

 

I don’t know how Johnny-san did it but somehow I debuted as Arashi when we were in Hawaii. At that time I was happy to be in a group finally but later couldn’t help it to feel left out when I saw my band mates.

 

I know Aiba, Jun and Nino are friends since they came from the same sub-group and I always adores Ohno who have talents in both singing and dancing but he hardly speaks to people which made me hard to get close to him.

 

 I tried my best to get to know them all and I realised we are making progress as the years passed by. I became close to Ninomiya, tend to share some opinion with Jun and enjoyed my time with Ohno.

 

***

 

“Nino, what makes you and Aiba close?” Sho asked, casually as he busying himself with playing WII along with Nino at his house.

 

“Huh Aiba? Why asked this so sudden?” Nino asked, pausing the game and turned sideways at the couch both he and Sho shares to look face to face with Sho. A curious look plastered on his face and he continue “ I know you and Aiba hardly talk when  the five of us gathered together and I also noticed that you pretty much didn’t like him well sort of, since now I noticed you do changed a bit…”

 

Sho looked at Nino startled with how much his friend knows about him and his surrounding and feeling.

 

“Well yea, I mean both of us are in the same age but I and he are totally opposite in everything especially when it comes to maturity and also I cant help to think that he is a laid back person…” and before he could finished his sentence, Nino snapped.

 

“How could you say that??? You don’t even know and try to get to know him even and you dare to jump into bad conclusion!”

 

“Nino, please don’t be mad” Sho tried to calm Nino who already on his feet “I just stated out my opinion here”

 

“All I could say to you is Sho, get to know Aiba first before you make that statement again and by that time you will know how wrong you were…”

 

***

 

The conversation with Nino replay back on my head as I thought how our friendship all started. I even noticed that the gap who already been there between Aiba and I become bigger as Aiba become more unapproachable and I noticed he seem to be avoiding me too. I couldn’t help but to think that Nino might have told Aiba about what I said before.

 

It is true; at first I always find Aiba was a bit annoying. Even though the two of us are born in the same year, he tend to act more childishly sometimes more compares to Jun and Nino who is a year younger than the two of us.

 

Aiba can be reckless sometimes, he can be clumsy and he is a natural baka most of the times. Later without me noticing it, somehow Aiba attitudes and his bubbliest had been a deceased to me. Even though he tend to act not to his age but his has his heart at the right place and when he is happy he tends to make everyone around him to be happy as well.

 

That the talent that I can’t have for the rest of my life and I envy him for that. Now I know why Ninomiya can be his best friend, Jun adoration toward him and now I also know where Ohno source of smile come from and without me realising it I noticed I’ve been magnetized by Aiba too.

 

I also have started to notice how wrong I was when I saw Aiba is not a laid back person. I watched him work hard especially with his saxophone which he really fall in love playing with. I also cannot help but notices that whenever he played the sax, his breaths also seem to be deteriorating. I happened to stumble on him when he was holding his chest after his sax practice and when he notices I was there watching, he quickly left the room covered with sweats.

 

I don’t know when it started but it already become a habit of mine to always sneak a glance at Aiba every time I have the chances and hoping he wouldn’t notices. Almost everyday I think about how to redeem myself about what I said about him earlier and try to get close to him.

 

And then that thing happened…

 

The five of us were rehearsing our dance steps for our new single; I happened to glance at Aiba who was standing beside me and by the time my gaze landed on him I saw that he was holding his chest before he collapsed on the floor.

 

I also remembered I was the first one to be at his side, holding him tight and for once I didn’t know what to do as I watched him breathed like a fish on the land, while Jun and Ohno stares and Nino yelled for help.

 

“Please hold on tight Aiba! Please hold on, don’t you dare to leave us now, we need you… I need you…give me a chance to get to know you and be one of your best friends…” and among other things that I whispered to him at that time.

 

I guessed Aiba had heard all the things that I have said because after he come out alive from his sickness and be himself again, he somehow become more approachable and the two of us soon to be attached to each other as Nino also notices and complaint about it, saying that he want to turn into a new leaf when he also happened to be more attached to Ohno and warned us not to be sorry for leaving him…

 

 

(SHIDA said: Waa this is the first time I didn’t have a cliffhanger in my chapter..hehe…thanks in advance for reading and for all ur support..oh yea about the heart transplant thing in previous chapter I just realised that well minna please cut me some slack as I FLUNK my BIO..*blushes* XD)