Chapter 33

[arashic0804]

Title: Regret and Second Chance

Rating: G

Pairings: Sakuraiba and Arashi

Disclaimer: I do not own any of arashi.

Summary: Arashi will lose one member and Sho will have a second chance.

 

 

(Chapter Thirty-three)

 

Once I reached home, I straight away went to bed. While I was waiting for the sleep to come, I thought back about my encounter with Sakurai-san. The feeling of deja-vu was so strong that now I can’t stop thinking that maybe, maybe Sakurai-san had something to do with my past. I’m really desperate of searching my past as I knew my past holds my real identity. I prayed hard in hoping to be friends with Sakurai-san and I hope I can see him again at the park tomorrow night…

 

“Ya know, I kept seeing you here almost every night and the moment you sat down, within minutes you will be lost in your imagination world,” I said, after I thought hard of bringing the topic out.

 

Sho-kun looked at me, a bit surprised.

 

It’s weird on how our friendship blossomed. After our encounter at the crosswalk on Christmas Eve, I had met him again the next night as I saved him from falling in the drain. He was walking absent-mindedly and didn’t see the road in front of him. I called him out when he is mere two steps from the big drain. I still remembered his face expression was gleam with delight when he saw me and when I was about to walk away again, he asked me to exchange contacts number and said that he will be at the usual park till midnight everyday if I want some company.

 

At first, I feel like I need to be friend with him so that maybe he can help me with remembering my past, but after knowing Sho-kun a bit better, I decided to forget my purpose as now I think him as my really first ever best friend.

 

Our friendship, even though it is short period development had reached to the level of calling each other by our first name. Well it was Sho-kun idea in the first place. I was a bit reluctant to call Sho-kun by his first name but I don’t mind him called me Shin. In the end, I agreed to call using the first name call but with a kun behind his name. I feel a bit weird as I can see the eagerness of Sho-kun wanting me to call him Sho. As in he missed himself being called that by a certain person. I wonder what Sho-kun secret of sadness.

 

So I tried again when I saw Sho-kun doesn’t make an attempt to reply.

 

“You look sad whenever you came here. You know you had me to talk with”

 

Once I said the sentence, I can see that Sho-kun eyes became a bit wide and it’s been clouded by sadness, comfort and if I can see more I can see regret too. Now I’m really curious what had happened to Sho-kun in the past?

 

“Thanks for the offer Shin” Sho-kun replied as he smile at me before returned his gaze back to look at the night city that full of lights in front of them.

 

“Being here with you somehow made me happy and calm” Sho continued which cause me to look at him abruptly.

“You already helped me with this and I really appreciated it”

 

What Sho-kun had said earlier somehow triggered a sense of happiness that I had not been having a chance to feel with within these few months. I didn’t had a friend besides Momo, I don’t know what happy is and I don’t know what comfort really means.

 

Being with Sho-kun somehow made all the feeling that I buried deep inside of me dig out by themselves and made me feel that I do belong to the world, even though some of my past world had gone missing. He made me feel attached for once.

 

I feel so happy up till I chuckled out loud. Sho-kun looked at me amusingly.

 

“You laughter is sure contagious ne” Sho-kun said as he started to laugh, looking at me who currently playing with Momo’s ear.

 

“I told you I am an interesting person” that’s all I could think of a reply as I feel my blood rush to my both cheeks.

 

Somehow tonight I know I had feel attached to two best friends that are in front of me now as deep inside my thought I kept thinking “I wondered if I had more best friend that I can depend my life with…”

 

 

(SHIDA said: Well I’m happy at the moment as I just collected my Arashi IS Alive photo book and the book was AWESOME!!!! And I posted some of my fave pics from the book in my LJ if you want to look at it…XD…And in the end I couldn’t even sleep the whole night because of that coffee…the coffee that I’m addicted with… I am being jinx by a coffee that won’t let me sleep… ah poor me…)

 

P.S: I already posted the second part of my one-shot fanfic…do check it out...